I’m actually enjoying being alone. It took me a little bit to get used to.. but honestly what are a couple months of my time compared to years and a lifetime!? It’s an awesome feeling to have most of my shit together and know that I did this. Now, the things that I have been neglecting are coming into the spotlight and it’s easier to start focusing on those areas of my life now that the clutter is cleared. I’m saying a lot more “no” to things that I don’t want to get involved in, and not feeling bad for it. Honestly, this could be the biggest year for me and my personal growth, all the cards are in my hands.

The whole sobriety thing was a nice thought  when I started in November… but it didn’t last long and honestly right now I don’t really mind that. I’m not an alcoholic and I enjoy going out and having some drinks, so as long as I’m not overdoing it and ending up in situations that are unsafe or undesirable, I don’t see a reason to completely cut myself off of that.

I signed up for tinder.. and instantly realized how pointless that was! I’m not looking for what tinder is offering, actually at this point anything relationship wise is out of the question for me completely. I’ve gone almost 5 months now without affection.. I can definitely keep going until I find someone who is worth my effort. That sounds pretentious but.. hey, it is what it is. I’m tired of letting other get the best of me.

I know this post isn’t the vitamin D talking, because I haven’t taken any in about a week.. so I’m happy that things are starting to look up.