Time can feel like it’s frozen.. but then you catch yourself in the moment and realize that it’s never stopped ticking away.

There have been situations I’ve been in where I thought they’d never end; yet, here I am remembering them and not living in them.

I’m not exactly sure what the purpose of life is, but I’ve started realizing that my suffering is only coming from what I believe I want (and am not getting). I’m constantly disappointed by my expectations. But the truth is, I don’t NEED anything here. The ideal partner, kids, an awesome job, companionship, the perfect body, super knowledge… all the things that run through my mind every day that I am disappointed by because I don’t have them in accordance with my minds expectations of HOW I should them.

It seems a lot more simple to just take everything one moment at a time and not worry (future) or feel sorrow (past). Maybe that’s why we were all born to be creators.. biologically and physically.. to let your body create more bodies but let your mind create whatever it can imagine.

When I stay busy in my creative space, the outcomes are purely from within. A partner isn’t going to do that for me, children aren’t going to create that for me, the job, body, friends and family aren’t going to manifest what I feel inside… they’re only going to ADD to it.

I will still give pieces of my spirit and soul to those I meet and come to love, because I DO know that’s a portion of my purpose.. but I won’t let it be my ONLY purpose.