WORDS are powerful. And the mind is such a creative processor for imagination… so it’s no wonder at some point that we all get sucked into what someone is telling us, especially if we can actually PICTURE that world that’s being painted verbally.

But if you don’t follow through with actions then those words just become a fairy tale or worse, LIES. Doubt creeps in after that point whenever someone starts painting those pretty pictures again. It’s a cycle.

Someone talked about the 5 love languages book the other day, and I know my preferred method of being shown love is what you do. I can buy my own gifts, words of affirmation are nice, but again that’s where the doubt can set in if the actions aren’t speaking. Physical touch is nice, but if you’re not showing me in other ways, then this one is also null and void.

I’m not perfect either though. I paint tons of beautiful pictures in my mind, but when it comes down to what I want for myself I suddenly find the longest, most understandable list of excuses… so this time to myself should be filled with habit change, which doesn’t happen over night.

I’m starting school on Monday and that’s a routine I can get into.. like a building block to add to. Throw the gym in there and other things I wish to add into my life.. and hopefully one little small step at a time I can create this life that I actually want to live.