The military uses the term “theater” to describe certain areas across the globe where events are occurring that might turn into a more serious situation. When I first heard the term, I thought it was odd that they would use such a term to describe a potential war setting, but it really does make sense when you take a step back. Everything we do in life, in love and in war is a tactic. Hardly ever, is it something that we do where it is spur of the moment… that’s not to say surprises and whims don’t happen.. but for the most part, our actions have some kind of thought behind them.

When you look at life as a theater, it’s almost like you can take the meaning of “life” and really make it something that doesn’t hold much value. In plays and movies we can kill a character and yet at the end of the performance they’re still alive, it was all just for show. I think we as humans act in a very haphazardly way, some more than others. It makes me wonder what their views on life are. Obviously we all should know and understand that this life is not permanent… just as a play or a movie are not permanent… maybe Harry Potter seems to go on forever or Lord Of The Rings… or Batman… those movies never seem to die. But… we’re all acting in a theater, we are all going to die.

I believe we all go to heaven. Even the worst of the worst. I believe there is a process based off the energy that you inhibit while you’re on Earth. Heaven is a high vibrating frequency, and heavens past that and past that until that vibration is so fast and bright that we are all ONE. If you’re on this Earth and you’re letting the negativity shape your thoughts and actions and you’re hurting others or yourself, you can’t operate in a high vibration until you start becoming more like that energy. So when you die, you stay in those low frequencies for what may seem like eternity.. I haven’t quite figured out time yet.. but slowly you will come out of that darkness that you’re in, even if it only take a tiny thought of hope or something just a tiny bit more positive than what you’re currently in. One. Tiny. Hopeful. Thought. At a time.

ONENESS wants every single particle of itself to come full circle. Harmony. Synchronicity.

So what is the purpose of this life on Earth then if we can all float around as molecules? Free will. Experiencing free will in a dimension where TIME is a factor and life is a process. Sometimes things happen instantaneously, sometimes it takes minutes, days, months or years to feel the repercussions of what we are creating. The truth is, we are never going to get away with what we think we are.

The energy that I keep putting out is not the kind of energy that I want to be living in.  I’ve got a beautiful mind, THAT is something I know about myself, something that will never change. I can imagine the type of life I want, the world I want to live in, I can make it as over the top as I want, because that’s my freedom, my thoughts, my world that I can escape to and be completely peaceful in. What I can’t do, which is obvious, is create that world in the snap of my fingers. Because TIME. And also because this world is not JUST MY WORLD, there are billions of other humans and energies and desires and thoughts floating around this tiny globe. I’m sure there is some mathematical genius out here that can calculate the amount of people it would take the think the exact same thought at the exact same time for a period of time to make some tiny little thing happen. 7 billion people times 100 billion brain cells time 60 seconds times 60 minutes equals 1 particle vibrating exactly the same at .000001 second. Or something. IDK.

Whatever. The point is.. I don’t ever want to lose my mind. Which means I have to take care of it, which means I have to take care of MYSELF, which means forcing myself to get out of the negative thought patterns, eating foods that make me feel good and healthy, sitting in the sunshine when it pops out after raining for 3 weeks straight, stretching my body, reading, writing, and creating. AND taking it easy on myself when I catch myself doing something I don’t like. It all seems so easy, and one day, for me, it will be second nature.

I imagine a giant ball of string all knotted up, no matter which end you start on, you can hardly budge the string from the knots. You have to slowly and gently start somewhere and work through and around and back again until you finally get something substantial enough to work with and work that ball back into a piece of string. It’s not impossible. It just takes patience and persistence and a strong desire to actually see that knot come apart and a string come out.

If my life was played out on a theater, I think it would consist of 31 years 6 months and 15 days of me sitting in the spot light, getting handed a long string, dancing and twirling and being dramatic with this string for hours and years, stomping on the string, viciously rubbing this string together in my hands, creating a beautiful, entangled knot… then sitting back down and finding a way to undo it.  Whenever that knot  is undone… so will I be. Back to those lovely vibrations that I miss so deeply.

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